One day in the winter of 2020, I suddenly found myself unable to express what I was feeling out loud. I became unable to speak out loud, so I became unable to hold a conversation or answer questions when asked. Even though I had something on my mind and something I wanted to say…I couldn’t even talk to anyone because I couldn’t explain it properly. I couldn’t understand my condition, my situation, everything, and I didn’t know what was going on.
I think some people were offended because they felt like I was making fun of them or ignoring them. As I felt that they thought so, I was worried about it. I tried my best not to let anyone know, and I just said ” Yeah” and ” Yes, ” and just made a simple gesture to get through it.
My family and friends found that I was losing my facial expressions day by day, and they saw I was no longer my usual self. They all thought that was strange, so I had an MRI scan of my brain. It was discovered that I had a cerebral hemorrhage, measuring about 9 cm. It was also discovered that a blood clot was pressuring on the nerves in the language area. I was told that the place where the vein and the artery are connected, called a ” vascular malformation, ” had torn, and it gradually began to bleed. I was immediately hospitalized and I had to have a major brain surgery. After the surgery, I underwent rehabilitation, and my doctor and nurses were surprised, saying ” It’s amazing how quickly you recovered with no aftereffects.”
After being discharged from the hospital, I continued to live my life without any changes, but I experienced many seizures and had to be taken care of by the emergency services many times. I made many people worry and inconvenienced due to several seizures after the surgery. However, I now feel that I have made the final adjustments to my brain and body.
This experience made me realize that I need to value myself more, love myself, and live my life!
Ever since I realized this, I feel that my talent for Hado art has blossomed. At first, I felt uncomfortable all the time, so I just kept drawing like doodles on various random things. I felt like I would go crazy if I didn’t keep drawing and drawing and drawing.
One day, I wondered what these patterns looked like…
When I showed them to a friend I trust very much, she said that they looked like something about vibration. I tried uploading them on Instagram, and I received inquiries from overseas galleries. Since then, I have received inquiries from multiple domestic and international galleries and art event companies. I have expanded the range of my activities as a Hado Art artist.
May this prayer reach all people living on earth…